You know the feeling: when something ends with the pretty, red bow tied on top to make it official, and you’ve celebrated and now you’re in the few moments after when all you can think is now what.
That’s where I’m at right now. With getting caught up in so many major life changes, I haven’t had a moment to process all of it. And now that I have, my anxiety has come back in full force. I know I just need to roll with the tide, but let’s face it, that’s easier said than done.
My boyfriend is the complete opposite in these situations. He’s as cool as a cucumber. He goes with the flow and takes everything one step at a time as I run around like a chicken with my head cut off. I don’t know how he does it sometimes. There have been cases where he’s so chilled out that I get more anxious and I don’t understand how he’s not as stressed as I am. But that’s when I start to adapt his outlook that everything will work out and that things will get done in the end. This doesn’t mean that we’re procrastinators. I’d say we’re actually the opposite, but taking a more relaxed outlook on situations makes life a lot easier and more pleasant.
So, with going into this new phase in my life, I’m going to attempt to just go with it. I don’t know exactly what’s going to happen or where I’ll end up, but what I do know is that I have a lot of support, a lot of love, and a lot of things to experience so I end up right where I need to be.